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I think he would tell us to stop fighting and to stop worrying. I think he would tell us that sometimes things aren’t as black or white as they might appear, and some things are done for the sake of others. Please do not judge me. Just love me as I have always loved you.
Have we forgotten that Michael said that he never wanted his children to be different, that he wanted them to live with normalcy? Can you imagine what normalcy they would have had if he had chosen to take them with him? None. They would have grown up afraid of everything and everybody and they would have been miserable for the rest of their lives. That is the reason I feel in my heart that Michael left them behind, so they could live a normal life. What ever he is going through, God bless him.
I have always believed in the saying if you love someone set them free. If they come back to you it was meant to be. I know that Michael’s children will grow to understand if they don’t already that what he did was courageous and done out of his love for them. He sacrificed himself for his one true love, his children. He made a better way for them. He didn’t leave them behind out of selfishness, he left them to allow them to live, to grow.
I don’t know what Michael is going through, however, I know that he thinks about them every minute he is away from them. I also fear that he is sad because of it, but that he is content when he sees how well adjusted they have become. Loving parents will go against all odds for their children to have what they didn’t have. Michael never had a childhood and he never had real, lasting love. His children will have all of those things. He made that possible. Michael is a genuis and he is a helluva daddy. I continue to pray for his peace and his well being. I have to believe that he is safe and is watching over us somehow. I have to believe that he knows that we are keeping vigil for him and that we will never let him part. He will always be my angel and even if I never ever get the chance to see him again, he lives forever in my heart.